MiyaviKitten

125 days its been 125 days since you completely broke, smashed, obliterated what was left of me but now 125 days passed between us it took you 125 days for you to confess and now after i do this we can finally be together.

5/26/13 youre fucking stupid and im fucking stupid and i fucking hate the world and fuck everyone good night

You know, shame on me. Like seriously, this time I’m gonna take the blame. I’m so going to take the blame not because I was the one who fucked up, not because I was _____ but because I was stupid & naive. I’m going back to my puppy ways- forgiving and just living in the moment of happiness, not giving a fuck about what happens to me later. All I wanted to get is a little bit fucking closer. And closer did I get.  After the break up, I still don’t even know how to fucking explain how much of a fucking failure I felt. It was literally a rollercoaster fucking drop, you know when you have that feeling when you’re up

4/15/13 - 12:25 am about to delete every single picture of us because i fucking hate you i tried playing nice, i tried being friends, i tried pushing my feelings aside but i want to say one last thing thank you thank you for the virtual slap in the face because now i am completely fucking over you i hope you're happy with her, like honestly i hope you're happy because sure as hell i'm not but it's fine because you're missing the fuck out you're missing out on the girl who would of loved you regardless of what you did you're missing out on the girl who made you dinner you're missing out on the girl who has a pure fucking heart of gold regard

4/14/13 about 4 weeks ago i recieved an anon message on my tumblr saying that there was a certain girl who was crushing on me i was interested and we started to talk more, keeping her anonymity though her name is brid she likes the same bands i do she is crazy into sports, and is super fitspo (6 pack abs, crazy toned muscles etc.) she enjoys the same interests i do she is basically a match made in heaven for me and i like her but i am scared of a lot of things because there is an ocean between us my mind is all fucked up from recent events i lost my best friend my girlfriends leave me drama drama drama grades are back to shit i want to be c

As I sit in this unaccompanied room, I wonder and ponder to myself, with my hands wrapped tightly around my legs and my knees to my face. I look down at the carpeted floor, studying the tightly wrapped coils of fabric. The black denim that branches together to cover my lower limbs starts to cramp up my ability to move so I don't make a single movement, except in my mind. As I focus my attention on this floor, in the room where I inhabit and spend my days sleeping, my mind is cleared. Then, as if a ton of red bricks are hurled through the air, you appear. I keep my eyes on the single floor and then they start to wander, along with my mind. The

I tend to go for the girls who are broken, like they have/had some sort of mental issues or something. Like, all the girls I've dated are a little crazy. Mostly depressed and emotionally wrecked. But, I like dating them because to me, it means that they're a little fucked up and it makes me feel not alone. I'm totally and utterly fucked up. I like to go on Bestgore and eFukt when I'm bored, I like the feeling of getting pissed, I like to listen to hardcore music, I like things that other girls don't like, I love nudity and porn, I like to scream along to IWABO or Dir en grey, I like the sensation of blood pouring out of my mouth, I'm just so

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